Influencing Positively.
Long weekend yay!! More homework nay!! Is nay even a legit word? Just googled it and it is!!!!! Cool.
Recently, there's been a lot going through my mind and I can't seem to focus on anything. I really hate the feeling but there's nothing I can do about it. I try to embrace whatever is going on but it's tough... ITS SO DIFFICULT. Some changes around me are honestly scaring me. I can't get used to those changes. I'm not talking about my school, I think I'm fine with it except it's really annoying at times.
Sometimes, I can't help to be easily pissed in school. I'm either affected by my thoughts or I'm just really too tired to give a damn. I snap at the people around me easily, and I sincerely apologise for that. I don't mean it, I just can't control it. I really hope they understand me but how well do they know me? It's only been 4 months since we've first met. How well do you know a person you've met for only 4 months? It's hard to rant or talk about my feelings because the people who understand me are usually busy and away. I don't blame anyone for that...
Recently, I've heard from people that they actually read my blog. It surprised me because I never thought that anyone would stop whatever they are doing to read this blog filled with pathetic thoughts by a 17 years old teenage girl.
I gotta admit, recently there has been thoughts about whether I should remove my blog because I'm kind of drifting away from it and I don't really feel the need to update regularly my blog anymore. After knowing that my blog was able to reach out and help people, I'm 100% sure that, I don't want to remove my blog anymore. Because of you all, the blog still exists and will continue to exists.
I'm young but that doesn't mean I'm naive. I may not have a lot of achievements in life, but I've got to say that the greatest till date, would be the ability to influence one's life positively. In the past, I probably wouldn't have thought that my existence would be so impactful to others. I never got enough assurance on how I've influenced others along the way, despite them telling me how I've influenced them positively.
However, that assurance came when one friend actually wrote about me in her composition and when I hear from others that their friend read my blog and was able to gain strength to carry on. Among those people that you've helped, who actually bothered to write/ speak about you positively to others?
I am thankful to be able to meet people who gave me the chance to influence them positively and I'm even more grateful to be able to learn something new through their experience.
Not being perfect enough to influence others is not enough to stop me from trying to help others who wants to change for the better. I know I'm just a 17-year-old teenage girl typing her feelings in front of the computer screen, and to those older people reading my blog, they may think this is trash. There are so much more out there for me to learn before I am able to influence more people positively but fear not, I am willing to learn. No matter how long or what method it takes, no matter how many people I can influence at one shot, it will never stop me from helping others.
To those who are reading my blog because you feel that my blog is comforting, I'm sure you will get past whatever you are going through now. Everyone can. It's just a matter of time, but don't lose hope if it takes too long! I may not know you, but I'll be here to support you! It's nice to hear that I can help people through my blog, it feels really great and it gives me strength and motivation to continue writing my blog.
And to those out there who constantly tells me how great of a person I am, or how I have influenced you positively, making you a better person. Thank you. Thank you for first letting me into your life to help you. It's nice to get these comments from time to time, and because of you all, I am more determined to continue writing.
It's nice to finally blog after donkey years! Just like before, blogging is just like a remedy for everything! It definitely lifted my spirits again after this hectic, hell of a ride week. Negative feelings be gone, and may positive vibes come in!
Cheers to everyone who spent their time reading my humble blog and cheers to everyone suffering in school! We will get through this no matter how tough school is!
-Jing Yi
Recently, there's been a lot going through my mind and I can't seem to focus on anything. I really hate the feeling but there's nothing I can do about it. I try to embrace whatever is going on but it's tough... ITS SO DIFFICULT. Some changes around me are honestly scaring me. I can't get used to those changes. I'm not talking about my school, I think I'm fine with it except it's really annoying at times.
Sometimes, I can't help to be easily pissed in school. I'm either affected by my thoughts or I'm just really too tired to give a damn. I snap at the people around me easily, and I sincerely apologise for that. I don't mean it, I just can't control it. I really hope they understand me but how well do they know me? It's only been 4 months since we've first met. How well do you know a person you've met for only 4 months? It's hard to rant or talk about my feelings because the people who understand me are usually busy and away. I don't blame anyone for that...
Recently, I've heard from people that they actually read my blog. It surprised me because I never thought that anyone would stop whatever they are doing to read this blog filled with pathetic thoughts by a 17 years old teenage girl.
I gotta admit, recently there has been thoughts about whether I should remove my blog because I'm kind of drifting away from it and I don't really feel the need to update regularly my blog anymore. After knowing that my blog was able to reach out and help people, I'm 100% sure that, I don't want to remove my blog anymore. Because of you all, the blog still exists and will continue to exists.
I'm young but that doesn't mean I'm naive. I may not have a lot of achievements in life, but I've got to say that the greatest till date, would be the ability to influence one's life positively. In the past, I probably wouldn't have thought that my existence would be so impactful to others. I never got enough assurance on how I've influenced others along the way, despite them telling me how I've influenced them positively.
However, that assurance came when one friend actually wrote about me in her composition and when I hear from others that their friend read my blog and was able to gain strength to carry on. Among those people that you've helped, who actually bothered to write/ speak about you positively to others?
I am thankful to be able to meet people who gave me the chance to influence them positively and I'm even more grateful to be able to learn something new through their experience.
Not being perfect enough to influence others is not enough to stop me from trying to help others who wants to change for the better. I know I'm just a 17-year-old teenage girl typing her feelings in front of the computer screen, and to those older people reading my blog, they may think this is trash. There are so much more out there for me to learn before I am able to influence more people positively but fear not, I am willing to learn. No matter how long or what method it takes, no matter how many people I can influence at one shot, it will never stop me from helping others.
To those who are reading my blog because you feel that my blog is comforting, I'm sure you will get past whatever you are going through now. Everyone can. It's just a matter of time, but don't lose hope if it takes too long! I may not know you, but I'll be here to support you! It's nice to hear that I can help people through my blog, it feels really great and it gives me strength and motivation to continue writing my blog.
And to those out there who constantly tells me how great of a person I am, or how I have influenced you positively, making you a better person. Thank you. Thank you for first letting me into your life to help you. It's nice to get these comments from time to time, and because of you all, I am more determined to continue writing.
It's nice to finally blog after donkey years! Just like before, blogging is just like a remedy for everything! It definitely lifted my spirits again after this hectic, hell of a ride week. Negative feelings be gone, and may positive vibes come in!
Cheers to everyone who spent their time reading my humble blog and cheers to everyone suffering in school! We will get through this no matter how tough school is!
-Jing Yi
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