Huhlidays

WASSSUP!

Had a pretty depressing outset for the holidays, and a big question mark is often left in my mind for the rest of the holidays.

Before the holidays started, I just felt really bothered by a lot of stuff and despite talking about it to a few of my friends, the feeling never really got away. It used to work in the past, though... Not sure why it isn't working now...

I tried to reach out to a few of my other friends again afterwards, who were usually the ones I told my problems to first, sadly the timing was just never right and so I just never talked about it.

Then, I told myself, "Ohhh, maybe taking a walk in nature does help." So, I went to the HSBC treetop walk with the girl scouts despite the haze ((you know, Adventurous... HAHAHA)), it sort of took things off my mind a little? However, just like previously, it worked for awhile only, then the feeling was back again.

Usually, when I'm alone or when I'm like the only kid around at home, I keep thinking about stuff and let my thoughts affect me. This time round, I am super duper thankful that my brother has been around at home for this week, to keep me entertained with stupid jokes and to stop thinking about those stupid, depressing thoughts ((Sorry, but I'm not into those self-harm thoughts)).

Right now, I'm still trying to not think about those things as much as I did in the beginning and I try to concentrate more on other stuff like studying, ya know.

After a week's worth of tormenting thoughts, I've come to realised that, I have missed out so many important people in my life and spent too much time with irrelevant people in my life. BAD.

So... I came up with a plan on what I want to do after O's.
  1. Finish up the fanfiction and edit it for it to become a book. WOOOOHOOOOO #excited
  2. Go out with the people I've always wanted to go out with, but don't really have the chance to due to our busy schedules.
  3. Take a walk with nature, and have some healing time.
  4. Finish volunteering for the para games ((If possible, cause the details and all are not yet confirmed))
  5. Bake the recipes that I've researched for this holiday.
  6. Go do some voluntary work, so far I've only done one at an elderly home with my cousins, so hopefully, I'll have the privilege to do more after O's!
  7. Exercise LOLOLOLOL
  8. Join classes for martial arts, fingers crossed that my mum will give the green light.
  9. Finish clearing the list of dance that I've been wanting to learn.
Yep, so that's about it! Hopefully out of 9, 4 gets eliminated? HAHAHA I'm the type of person who says she wants to do something but ends up not doing it cause she is lazy. So... I guess if I can eliminate 4 it's considered very good already. I guess, while anticipating for all these to happen, I have to work hard now since O's is just 30+ days away? I don't know man, my friends were talking about how many more days till O's a few days back, but I lost count already. Yeah... It's pretty near, so I guess I really have to start working hard already considering the fact that many of my friends have started revising since the beginning of the holidays D:

 Feels great to blog things out, thanks for reading ya'll!

 Jing Yi

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