Overwhelmed.
I feel the need to blog about this because it's a big part of my life.
At the peak of my interest in kpop, I did many memorable things, one of it which I will never forget would be writing a fanfiction. I started out my fanfic in 2013 when my grandmother passed away. When I started out, I was super motivated. Looking at the number of subscribers increasing, it got me really excited about this journey I was embarking on. I thought about my plot for days, weeks and months. I tried to add in elements that would really interest people into reading my story. I must admit, I'm not the best author. I'm not like your favourite John Green or J.K. Rowling.
Some of you are probably thinking, "Is this girl crazy? It's just a fanfiction. What makes you think you are an author? How dare you try to compare yourself to the other well-known authors?"
The thing is, no matter what I wrote; a fanfiction, a blog, a diary entry, a composition, I have an emotional attachment to these creations of mine. Finishing this fanfiction has always been on my to-do list but I just never want to face it. I always find excuses like, "I have no time, I have no motivation." In fact, I've got plenty of time, I've got heaps of motivation. I even came up with three more new plots. A part of me just doesn't want to finish the fanfiction because it feels like if I finished it, something is missing in my life.
Indeed, finishing that last sentence of the fanfiction was the toughest thing I've ever done. I contemplated whether I should start the last chapter all over again because it felt like I've completed the chapter too soon even though I sat in front of the computer for more than 5 hours.
Throughout these years, as I write this story, many things have happened. The boy band which I adored the most, and also the one which caused me to write the story split up. It was hard for me, there was this period when I cried a lot whenever I listen or see things related to them. Slowly, I lost interest in them and got out of kpop.
I started writing when I was secondary 2, a very memorable year for me. I started this blog when I was secondary 2 too by the way. If you go back to my first few blog posts, I've probably talked about some of the things that made that year very memorable. Both the story and blog have accompanied me through about 3 years and I felt that in these 3 years I really grew to become more mature.
I felt really overwhelmed when I clicked "Completed" for my story. I was happy that I finally completed it but at the same time, it just felt like I lost a part of me.
Also, I do interact with my readers so like, it was hard to say goodbye to them when I ended the story. They are a bunch of very supportive people, and they are always patient with me. I may not know them personally but I really feel like they are this group of friends to me.
In conclusion, I finally settled the fanfiction I've been longing to finish and I really didn't expect myself to be so emotional over this story. It was indeed one of the best journeys I've embarked on. As for the other plots/ stories, I've thought of in the past, I'll consider whether I'm gonna further work on it!
Thank you for reading!
-Jing Yi
At the peak of my interest in kpop, I did many memorable things, one of it which I will never forget would be writing a fanfiction. I started out my fanfic in 2013 when my grandmother passed away. When I started out, I was super motivated. Looking at the number of subscribers increasing, it got me really excited about this journey I was embarking on. I thought about my plot for days, weeks and months. I tried to add in elements that would really interest people into reading my story. I must admit, I'm not the best author. I'm not like your favourite John Green or J.K. Rowling.
Some of you are probably thinking, "Is this girl crazy? It's just a fanfiction. What makes you think you are an author? How dare you try to compare yourself to the other well-known authors?"
The thing is, no matter what I wrote; a fanfiction, a blog, a diary entry, a composition, I have an emotional attachment to these creations of mine. Finishing this fanfiction has always been on my to-do list but I just never want to face it. I always find excuses like, "I have no time, I have no motivation." In fact, I've got plenty of time, I've got heaps of motivation. I even came up with three more new plots. A part of me just doesn't want to finish the fanfiction because it feels like if I finished it, something is missing in my life.
Indeed, finishing that last sentence of the fanfiction was the toughest thing I've ever done. I contemplated whether I should start the last chapter all over again because it felt like I've completed the chapter too soon even though I sat in front of the computer for more than 5 hours.
Throughout these years, as I write this story, many things have happened. The boy band which I adored the most, and also the one which caused me to write the story split up. It was hard for me, there was this period when I cried a lot whenever I listen or see things related to them. Slowly, I lost interest in them and got out of kpop.
I started writing when I was secondary 2, a very memorable year for me. I started this blog when I was secondary 2 too by the way. If you go back to my first few blog posts, I've probably talked about some of the things that made that year very memorable. Both the story and blog have accompanied me through about 3 years and I felt that in these 3 years I really grew to become more mature.
I felt really overwhelmed when I clicked "Completed" for my story. I was happy that I finally completed it but at the same time, it just felt like I lost a part of me.
Also, I do interact with my readers so like, it was hard to say goodbye to them when I ended the story. They are a bunch of very supportive people, and they are always patient with me. I may not know them personally but I really feel like they are this group of friends to me.
In conclusion, I finally settled the fanfiction I've been longing to finish and I really didn't expect myself to be so emotional over this story. It was indeed one of the best journeys I've embarked on. As for the other plots/ stories, I've thought of in the past, I'll consider whether I'm gonna further work on it!
Thank you for reading!
-Jing Yi
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