Struggling.
I'm not sure whether I've mentioned this before, but I'm constantly struggling to express myself to others. I struggle to show how grateful I am, I struggle to show my affection towards others, and I just keep struggling. People who know me just by that few sentences we exchanged probably thinks that I'm just some "no-brainer" or something like I just speak without thinking in their opinion, which is true at times. And because of this, I constantly feel the need to show everyone that I'm not the way I seem. I'm not that "no-brainer" that you see and interact with, I'm so much more. Very often, I would rant about certain things but that doesn't mean that I don't enjoy that certain thing's presence and all. It might sound contradicting to others and they probably feel like I'm some double-faced bitch but I'm really not. Thus, I feel the extra need to clarify myself every time when I talk about sensitive topics or lik...