Jingles

Such an eventful year, so much to gain, so much to let go. Since the previous posts, so much has happened. So I'll just have a quick update now. PW has finally ended, the most atrocious subject I've ever taken. It made question a lot. I questioned about my existence and also what I have done in my past life to have an absolutely disgusting and irresponsible group mate. It was a rollercoaster ride with the group and in this rollercoaster ride, accidents do happen. For example, during the ride, one of my disgusting group member fell down from the rollercoaster when the ride was at it's peak. None of us was sad, in fact we do hope that he had dropped out from the very beginning instead. Enough of PW, another important thing that happened would be I GOT PROMOTED!!! It's really exciting to know that I'll be able to move on to the next year and hurry be done with my current school. Other than that, it's also exciting because my whole class got promoted. Even thoug...

There are so many things to embrace in this world, so what do we really embrace? Our memories? Our loved ones? Our similarities? We always embrace the good, then what about the bad? We always talk about how we should include people who are different from us, but how many of us actually do embrace differences? Not everyone is the same, there are bound to be people who are weaker, less intelligent and perhaps what society deem useless. What I'm trying to say is that, instead of pointing other people's differences out, how about we try to embrace their differences and work with it? Can't we do something about their differences? Why should they be outcasted just because they are different? I'm not talking about this topic because I felt injustice at one point in time, in fact, I felt like I was the one outcasting those people. I felt like I judge people's worth too quickly, I'm talking about judging people whom I know and now total strangers. I know som...

Fascinated by how time passes so fast. At the start of every week, I dreaded every single second and only longed for Fridays to come. Unknowingly, it has been near 7 months into the year 2016. I was on Instagram some time back and I came across one of my friend's post. I really got me thinking about what I have done for these past 7 months. I entered JC, telling myself that I will make use of these 2 years to find what I truly want in life, and work for it. However, nothing seems to be coming up. I haven't got a bit of idea on what I want in life. I like to joke around with my friends and tell them that I want to get married to a rich guy so I don't have to worry about my future. I can just stay home look after the kids and bake for them. That's my form of utopia, paradise, heaven. I want to lead a peaceful, stable life. I'm not a risk taker, I hate taking risks. I don't like to do things which I have no answers for. Perhaps, this is why I have yet to find...

I feel the need to blog about this because it's a big part of my life.  At the peak of my interest in kpop, I did many memorable things, one of it which I will never forget would be writing a fanfiction.  I started out my fanfic in 2013 when my grandmother passed away. When I started out, I was super motivated. Looking at the number of subscribers increasing, it got me really excited about this journey I was embarking on. I thought about my plot for days, weeks and months. I tried to add in elements that would really interest people into reading my story. I must admit, I'm not the best author. I'm not like your favourite John Green or J.K. Rowling. Some of you are probably thinking, "Is this girl crazy? It's just a fanfiction. What makes you think you are an author? How dare you try to compare yourself to the other well-known authors?"  The thing is, no matter what I wrote; a fanfiction, a blog, a diary entry, a composition, I have an emotional attachmen...

Long weekend yay!! More homework nay!! Is nay even a legit word? Just googled it and it is!!!!! Cool. Recently, there's been a lot going through my mind and I can't seem to focus on anything. I really hate the feeling but there's nothing I can do about it. I try to embrace whatever is going on but it's tough... ITS SO DIFFICULT.  Some changes around me are honestly scaring me. I can't get used to those changes. I'm not talking about my school, I think I'm fine with it except it's really annoying at times. Sometimes, I can't help to be easily pissed in school. I'm either affected by my thoughts or I'm just really too tired to give a damn. I snap at the people around me easily, and I sincerely apologise for that. I don't mean it, I just can't control it. I really hope they understand me but how well do they know me? It's only been 4 months since we've first met. How well do you know a person you've met for only 4 months?...

Life definitely became harder and the stress is real. I don't show it, but I really do feel stress whenever my classmates complete their homework. It's like, I'm an outcast if I don't complete my homework. A total opposite situation of what I encounter back in ZHSS. It's about 2 months into my new school, I've adapted well but I can't stop making references back to my previous school. I'm trying to complete all the homework I have on hand, but the old me keeps appearing. I keep procrastinating and doing useless stuff. I just can't seem to sit down quietly for an hour to just study. It's so difficult for me. I'm constantly sleeping during lectures and I know it's bad. I told myself that I will revise at home, but no. I don't see it happening. I honestly hope I can start to buck up because honestly, I don't wish to retain and spend an extra year in YJC. I can't wait to get out of this hell hole though the people in it are grea...

Survived school and finally got rewarded with a week of school holidays! Sadly, I got myself into too many things; agreed my friends that we will meet up during the school holidays, involving myself in the upcoming campfire and forced to complete a ton of homework. HOW TO MANAGE? So far so good, everything has been going well except for how my new guitar decided to fail me by having a couple of its string broken. Otherwise, everything is great. I'm actually kind of looking forward to quite a number of things for this holiday even though it's just one week. Firstly, I'm of course looking forward to the upcoming campfire. Honestly, I'm very curious how this campfire will turn out. Recently, I talked to my juniors and realised how much they have been going through. As much as I don't want to admit that they had experienced the exact same thing as my batch but I cannot not admit that their batch has their own problems and are probably encountering some similar exper...

So much has changed since my previous update! Okay, maybe not that much? I have successfully adapted to the new environment, made new friends and surviving well in my new school. A different environment, totally different friends from all kinds of background and a somewhat similar me. I definitely miss the times I spent in Zhonghua but at the same time, I am starting to enjoy the times I spend in Yishun with my new friends. Maybe, this is called growing up? I guess when one transits from one phase in life to the next, changes are inevitable. With these changes, growing up becomes evident. It doesn't necessary mean that all changes are bad and neither is growing up. Well, turning 16 allowed me to start watching nc16 movies in the cinema. My point here is just to say that, I think I've grown. The keyword here is "think". I may or may not have grown, but something just feels different now and then. Previously, I talked about how I'm going to let go of the pas...

With all these results coming out, I can't help but to feel really disappointed in myself. I feel like I've let so many people down. Before anyone of you comforts me, the point is that I was never the girl with good grades, I was more like the girl with bottom 25% and so people around me and myself, don't really have very high expectations of my results. When I got back my results the other day, I couldn't describe exactly how I felt. I was happy that I got an average result, but at the same time, I felt like shit because I wasn't expecting to get a D7 for my higher mother tongue since Chinese has always been the stronger language. I felt like shit for the entire day as well as the next few days. Because of my higher mother tongue, I wasn't able to get into the school I want. It sucks big time, the school is just freaking two bus stops away from my house. My parents, though, I could see that they were proud of me for being able to get such a score because like I...

Brand new year but the same old me! The same old me who constantly has a lot going on in her mind, the same old me who likes to bake and cook, the same old me who is afraid of lizards, cockroaches and clowns, the same old me who is always lazy, the same old me who likes to sleep, the same old me who needs to blog about her feelings. There's definitely a lot of things going through in my mind now. The worse part of it is that all of them needs a closure which means I have to make decisions on those matters. I tried to avoid those matters by not thinking about it too much but at the end of the day, it just comes back. I used to struggle a lot when it comes to making a decision. Always fearing that I will hurt someone when I make up my mind. I bet all of you reading this share the same sentiments as me. Making decisions are never easy. Also, I believed I've talked about the topic of making decisions in my early blog posts and I always believed that as long as your decision mak...